I'm just gonna say it...

As a disclaimer, I want everyone to know that this is my blog. Not that you didn't already know that, but it is. And in being my blog, I think I'm allowed to feel free to say anything I'd like. Right? Right. So, I'm just gonna say it. Something controversial. Something close to my heart. Something that makes me cringe.


In light of the recent talk about Obama and all of the 'abortion' talk, I decided to look up what was considered to be a late-term abortion, because I know that he isn' t ok with that. I am not going to say anything more on Obama on this issue (phew!), but being pregnant and all, it has sparked my interest. I am very pro-life, and believe that a baby is alive and thriving at conception (or at least that's what God's word tells me).


I was absolutely HORRIFIED by what I found out. There is something called a "grey area" (ever heard of those?!) as to what is considered a late-tem abortion. Here is the breakdown: some states belive it's at 16 weeks (4 months), some believe 20 (5 Months), some believe 24 ( 6 months), and just when you think it can't go any higher, some believe that a baby is not consered "Viable" at 27 weeks (almost 7 months)!!!!!!!!!! This is seriously ludacris to me. I can't fathom it. I am at 23 weeks right now. And man do I feel a human being inside of me kicking around and doing her thing!


Here are a few quotes from a website I was on getting some of this information:


"Women's Health Care Services is a professional organization dedicated to providing expert, confidential, and respectful abortion care." -can those words honestly even be placed in the same sentence?!?!


" We have a national and international reputation for providing the highest quality abortion services in a safe and caring environment. Kindness, courtesy, justice, love and respect are the cornerstones of our patient-provider relationships. "- Wow.

"We have an unparalleled record of safey in late abortion services and we have more experience in late abortion services over 24 weeks than anyone else currently practicing in the Western Hemisphere, Europe and Australia." - That's something to be proud of. Are you kidding me?!


I debated whether or not to post this entry for a while. But being informed is so important. If it means offending someone, then that's a risk I'm willing to take. I don't mean to offend, but this is kinda my spot. On the right hand side over there it says- "a little spot where I can share what's in my head & on my heart". And this is on my heart. To conclude, I found this true story. I am anxious to see the movie, and have never heard of it, but it looks really interesting and the story behind it is heart-wrenching. The story is about a girl from Illinois ( you may have heard the story), who had an abortion done at 22 weeks. She aborted the baby in the toilet of the abortion clinic, and the baby was alive when it came out. The clinic refused to give the child care, and refused to let the EMT's come in once her friend called 911 to save the baby. She wasn't truly informed as to what could happen after the abortion. This is her story. The documentary/movie is called 22 Weeks. A website to look up more info on this and other things is www.bornalivetruth.org

My Day

I figured that you would all want to know what my schedule is like today. I think it's quite ridiculous.

6:15am- Wake up
6:35am- leave for work (don't judge me for my lack of a shower!)
7:00am- Go to work to find out I have to stay later than 1pm..I know...cry me a river why don't you...I'm spoiled these days!
4:45pm-Get off of work, head home
5:00pm-Meet with a couple of kids from the youth group for an hour
6:00pm- Go to youth group & teach my freshmen girls about God
8:00pm-Leave small group room @ church, then go back to youth room to practice worship songs for camp this weekend for a few hours.
10:30-11:00pm-Finally get home & go to BED! (Note: No intentions to shower at any point today).

Top it off with a pregnant protruding belly, a sore back, and feeling like you wanna throw-up all day. LOVELY..........AND!!!! I don't get to watch the season premier of my most favorite show tonght either!!!! Oh my sweet sweet Lost, I shall miss you dearly and look forward to being glued to television tomorrow night for our reunion :)

Dare I try to have a good attitude about it all?... We'll see.

January 14th & 16th

Hellooooo friends! January 14th & 16th are pretty exciting here in the Porter home. I would like to share why...

First of all.....drumroll please.....


THIS SHOW is coming back on! I know it's a recap and everything, but who even cares?! Just to see all my Lost buddies on the big screen again could quite possibly make me pee my pants in anticipation :) So, everyone tune in! And if you haven't seen Lost yet & experienced the Awesomness of the show, you have exactly 1 week to catch up....and don't fret my friends, it IS possible to watch all the episodes to catch up. It's SO worth a week of no sleep!

Ok, onto January 16th. I have to admit that I am even more excited about this date. Since Lost is not real life, as much as I would like it to be, THIS is. And this girl's life & story has inspired me to NO END. I feel so blessed sometimes to be a part of the blogging world. The people that you find (or stalk) can change you. Stephanie Neilson & her husband Christian, former Arizonians who now reside in Utah, were in a terrible plane crash in August of this last year. They have been recovering now for months, and she is going to FINALLY be back to post a blog on January 16th! She is an amazing mom & wife, and I'm so excited to actually read something that SHE posted! I have been reading her archives, and her sister and others have been reposting her blogs, but on Jan 16th I will be a proud follower of her actual postings. And seriously people, you must read her blog. It's amazing. And don't feel bad if you go way back to years before and read all her posts. I did. And it was awesome. And worth it. Her link is on the side of my page on the right hand side under "Pray for The Neilson Family". So check it!

Tonight

I get to spend the night by myself tonight. Well, for the most part. Adam will be gone playing basketball with some guys from work. I used to be such an introvert, then somehow that changed. Actually, I take that back- I started out being an extravert not knowing or acknowledging that I really was an introvert because it wasn't "cool"- became a Christian- realized that I was indeed an introvert and loved to just sit around thinking and asking myself hard questions about life, sitting by myself & reading a book, going to the movies by myself, etc- and now, here I am living the life of an extrovert and missing my roots yet again. Wow, did you guys understand that?!?!

I really look forward to these little times I get. The funny part of pregnancy for me is that I haven't really thought much about the nursery decor, what it will be like when she gets here, or any of that stuff. I'm more concerned about the now. Like, being a wife. I know that once a baby comes, it makes it that much harder to focus on your husband. I don't even do a great job now. So, I have been focusing a lot on improving some of those things. Mommy stuff will come to me, and I will learn as I go. But right now, it's still about Adam and I. I'm not so naive to think that I can somehow master the art of being an awesome wife overnight, but I'm hoping to develop some good habits that will stay with me. I want our marriage to be a testimony and a pillar of strength to my little girl, and to Adam and I. It's so important. I will be thinking and making some goals tonight for sure.

The Lord is so good & so gentle. He had been gracefully nudging me lately that I need to spend some good time with Him. I just need to stop. Stop and think about where I am at with Him, with how I treat the people I love, and how to stay true to myself through all the pressures in this life- and the people in this life who try and change what I think about things, or make me question what I really know is good. God gives has given me confidence in myself that I have never known before. I actually really enjoy being me. What a great feeling. Yesterday was my 6 year anniversary celebrating my life with God. I have gone through some amazing times of satisfaction & peace, times of great sorrow not really living with Him or by His word, times of recovery & picking up the pieces, times of strength, and dry times of wonder & hopelessness. Through it all, He has been my rock. Always unchanging & always true to Himself. I may leave for a while and take my leave, but He stays there waiting. Wow. I am blessed. I love the song "Blessed be Your Name". It talks about how the Lord gives and takes away, and in this life we see it everyday. Not just with life, but with friendships, our marriages, our family, etc. But I am so thankful that He has it all under a calm-control. I am never desolate or alone.

Tonight will be a night of celebration, evaluation, and deep thought. I can't wait.

P.S. Finally Finally Finally! Ellie has FINALLY been moving around and I can feel it! Amazing. I feel like I have waited for an eternity :) I have also grown a TON! I will see about taking some pictures tonight as well.

Love, Krystle

Birth

Alright. Just for the record, this is the last time I'm going to change my blog background! I'm finally satisfied.

I have been so disappointed lately with my lack of updates. My mind is dry. Well, actually, it's just dry of blogging material, I have been thinking up a storm these past few weeks! It's hard to even try and think of anything else except being pregnant or babies when you have one growing inside of you. And I don't want to bore you all with only baby thoughts. However, I am going to blog about something pertaining to babies (and my baby), so bare with me.

I absolutely love the idea of an all-natural birth. No medication. Feeling every contraction. The whole idea of doing it like millions of women have done for hundreds and hundreds of years just sounds so intriguing & empowering. I have been watching documentaries (mainly "The Business of Being Born") and learning all about the history of birthing in America. It's very interesting to say the least and I recommend it to anyone. In watching that & doing some of my own research, Adam and I have decided to use a midwife and have our baby at home.

I am beyond excited about this. To birth my baby all by myself (in essence) will be my greatest victory. I'm sure of it. This is all to say that I have a normal, low-risk pregnancy. I picture Adam and I (+ our midwife) in our living room, candles surrounding us, soothing music playing in the background, Adam helping me through every contraction, and me listening to my body, which completely knows how to deliver a baby on its own. I was made to do it.

That's all for now. Hope everyone is having a wonderful Friday.

Happy New Year!!!