Tuesday, January 13, 2015

Thoughts on 4 + It's a GIRL!!!

(Ellie, Claire, & their friend, Sienna)
 I think first and foremost, the news that this baby is a little GIRL came with much relief! I love my Abram to pieces, but wow, he's been a little fireball. He gives me a run for my money every.single.day. A few months back I said a silent, small prayer to God on a particularly difficult day that I didn't know if I could take another boy- that I needed this baby to be a girl. Apparently He thought that's what we needed too!
I told Adam that I felt like I could breathe a little easier now. Writing this out I sound so dramatic about it, but it's the truth. Ask me in 12 years when I have 3 teenage girls how I feel- I'm sure I'll sing a different tune! Ellie and Claire are still so young and their drama meter can shoot through the roof at times :)
We are mulling over names, but overall just feeling overjoyed that we have a healthy, very active (per the ultrasound!) girl in there that is going to make our love multiply that much more. The ultrasound guy kept asking if we (mostly Adam) were disappointed it was girl- ha! Give it up dude, we're ecstatic and not lying about it...silly man!
My post was titled thoughts on four, so I'll fill you in on some of those too. Now that my belly has popped and I'm officially showing, I feel like more of a spectacle to watch when we're out and about. The cashier at Costco today was mentioning how many babies a previous customer had looking at my full cart of kids and bulging belly- that's the breakdown- people look at me now and think "whoa lady, that's a lot of kids!". They don't need to say it, I know it ;)
I don't get too many people asking me how I'm feeling- which I LOVE! It's a fine question, but ask any pregnant lady and you know it's over used. I think the look on my face tells people how I'm feeling. The lack of make-up, shush-ing my screaming one and a half year old, telling the kids for the billionth time that no, we're not buying that today- wherever we may be, and just the general chaos that shows when you are wrangling a small team of kids and getting winded bending over to grab a toy. Oh, it's fun stuff I tell ya!
But it is. It really is. The amount of pure exhaustion I feel at the end of the day is more that worth it. It's hard but it's GOOD. People keep saying that having 4 is EASIER than having 3 (say what?!?!) but I'm choosing to believe them and I'll hunt them down if they are pouring hopeful lies into me! Not really......but sort of :)

Wednesday, January 7, 2015

When Dance Parties Don't Work

There are some days that I feel my head might explode doing this whole mothering business. Today has been one of those days. These days are LONG. Usually the kids are whining (a lot!), the house is a disaster, there are no groceries for dinner (or lunch- shout out to Chick-fil-a), and even trying to brighten moods with a dance party just doesn't work! Believe me- I just tried it.

Then there's Claire. My little constant girl. She is sweet, kind, and always trying to figure out a way to make you happy. She is quiet and more independent than the other two. And she's just the darned cutest thing. She is my relief on some days- these days- that feel like they might get the best of me.

She was the only one who danced with me during my dance party. And she did it without a care in the world! She was free and just plain happy. If she could just capture some of that, bottle it up, and send it my way (and maybe your way!) the world would be a better place.

She is the beauty in my mundane today. And boy is she a beauty.

Now off to make some oatmeal and toast. Because that's what you do on these days, right?

Tuesday, January 6, 2015

Finding Beauty in the Mundane

Tap, tap, tap! Anybody out there?! Wow. It's been a long time since I dusted off this little ol' blog. Since the last time I wrote I had another baby (Abram 1.5 yrs old) and am almost halfway through my pregnancy with baby number 4. In pure laziness and not wanting to recap multiple years worth of events, I won't. I'm just going to pick right back up as if I never left. Using this blog has been one of my best ways to document the daily happenings of my life and help me to remember them all. So, I have huge hopes of staying strong and using this thing quite a bit.

This has been the hardest season of life yet. I never thought having 3 kids would be so hard! The sleeplessness, the busyness, and the mundane tasks day in and day out that leave you feeling like you are waking up in groundhog day EVERY.SINGLE.DAY. I have resolved to making sure that I try to find the beauty in each day. Embracing the fact that every day may look painfully similar to the last, but there are these little treasures in each day that make it all worth it.

So, this my attempt to write down all those memories & treasures that fill my heart up. I'm sure the craziness of life will sneak it's way in as well too! If anyone is still out there, thanks for following!