Emotions Galore!

Man, sometimes it's stinkin hard being a girl! I thought that I would share with you all how CRAZY I have been lately. My emotions are just so out of wack right now, and I am driving myself crazy...ever have those days where you don't even wanna live in your own body??? Yep..that has been me lately. And my poor poor husband! He gets all the heat. I have just been crying, yelling, getting mad, frustrated, etc....you name it, I have been feelin it. Here are just a couple examples of my craziness:

1) Monday night I had an AMAZING, ROMANTIC, WONDERFUL date with my husband. It was at home, but it was one of the most romantic nights of my life...no joke. So, giving that as a little background, Tuesday, Adam brought me lunch at work (which I should have been totally grateful for). Since we are on our debt-plan right now, we were having peanut butter and jelly sandwiches for lunch. Adam drove all the way out to my work, brought all the stuff, and we were about to sit down and start making the sandwiches, when I realized that there were no snacks to go with our sandwiches. This made me VERY upset! I was so mad that he hadn't thought of a snack and I was being so mean to him about it, that when I practically threw his piece of bread at him to put peanut butter on, he tossed it back at me and said that he was leaving because I was being so ridiculous. So , then I threw the piece of bread back at him and made him so mad. Then, I started crying. And what I was really upset about came out, and we talked it through, and everything was ok. But man, poor Adam!

2) Then today, I was on my way home from work, and I was asking him if someone could come over tonight for dinner, and I was so into them coming over, that I really didn't give him the opportunity to say no. I basically was telling him, and not asking him, but in a question form if that makes sense. Once again, I got mad, cried, and was just so upset that he could even THINK of saying no to my proposal. To make it worse, Adam was headed to an interview right then, and we got off the phone still pretty upset with eachother, and I should have just been unselfish and wished him luck instead of being a contentious wife! Ugh!

And the emotions just keep rolling. I could cry at any given time right now, and I'm SO over it! I can't even imagine what I will be like when I'm pregnant! Ah! And, if you know me, then you know that this is not like me. I'm pretty steady for a girl. What is going on?!?!

On another note, one thing I am excited about is going to the Carrie Underwood concert with my friend Shannon in 2 days! Yeah! So, I suppose I can be happy about that :)

-K

Losing Weight Much?

So, I thought that I would update you all and let you know that the "6 Week Body Makeover" I was doing is so non-existent anymore! I stopped after 3 days! Ha!

Now, I am back to my original plan. Eating healthy & working out. Blah! The SLOW way. But I suppose that it's the most enjoyable. I really want to lose about 10 lbs so bad! I am so unhappy with my body right now. It's hard for me to have the motivation to get up and get ready in the mornings when I feel like my face looks too round to put make-up on and my clothes are too tight...I resort to no make-up, shorts and a t-shirt...double Blah!

I know that this is a pretty universal struggle for women, and my goal is not do the traditional plan...which is to do NOTHING about it. It's time to take some serious action here! It's called running and crunches! I am suppose to do this tonight....I need to do this tonight...I MUST do this tonight.

It's nice having a blog because sometimes you realize how lazy you can be! All these good intentions and no follow through. And worst of all, you post your good intentions, then have to say that you didn't do them when someone that reads your blog asks you about it!

So, to all of my blogging accountability partners: A Big THANK YOU!

Hopefully I will post some follow through here!!! I'm off to go drink water instead of a coke....

Our Weekend!

Well, it has been a crazy weekend! But very fun :) Friday night I got together with some of the girls at my church just to hang out, and we did a craft. We are going to try and have a routine "craft" night, and Friday was our first one! Yay! We ate yummy food, made cute bracelets, and played Scene It...the newer updated version that I am not very good at...we had a really great time. Adam hung out with all the rest of the husbands and played video games :) We finally got home around 1:00am. THEN, we woke up the next morning around 7:00am and got ready for Adam's mom's birthday. We were going up north to Payson to go to a car show and grill out at a park nearby. That was also sooo much fun! I got to freshen up on some of my gymnastics move at the park there that had a huge greenbelt!...and we played a little frizbee and football. We got home around 8 or 9:00pm and I had to do like 3 hours of homework! And that was the end. All in all, we had a jam packed awesome weekend, and got to spend lots and lots of time together :) And are you guys ready for this???!?!?!!! ......I'm actually posting pictures!!! Savre this moment because it doesn't happen often! I will try and stay with the timeline I've explained for the pictures...

Adam's brother Jacob and I before we left :)

Adam and I at the car show!

The bracelet I made at the craft night.

Oh, by the way, that wasn't in order! Ha! I forgot I was trying to do that :)

<3 Krystle

The High Calling of Being a Friend

I'm on to another TPA this week from this past Sunday's sermon. It was all about "how to be a good friend". It was really challenging. The scripture that we studied was Philemon 8-14. To conclude, and not tell you about the ENTIRE sermon, as I would be tempted to do, our pastor drew 7 ways from the passage to be a good friend:

1. Be Gentle

2. Be Vulnerable

3. Be Tactful.

4. Be Sympathetic

5. Be Honest

6. Be Open

7. Be Deferential

From these 7, we were asked to focus on only one. However, I picked 2. Being open & vulnerable. I am good with being open and vulnerable with some people, but there are other people that I purposely like to stay closed off from. I think that there is a healthy balance in that, and that I shouldn't just tell EVERYONE how I fell ALL the time, but when people are getting a different picture of me than who I really am, it doesn't sit well. And knowing that I caused that image to be portrayed doesn't sit well either. I am very passionate about having meaningful and real friendships, and this passage of scripture made me realize that I am doing some things to prevent those from happening, or hurting the one's that I already have by not doing those things.

Ok,... here is me getting vulnerable... I am scared to put off a negative image of myself and look stupid or incompetent. I do things to purposely prevent that from happening. I have a fear of being rejected, especially from my peers. Jesus is definitely working with me on this though. He is really teaching me about who I am in Him, and being comfortable with failing, and comfortable with being not good enough, and comfortable with not being as smart as the next person. I am really good at just blending in with whatever social setting I'm in, that I think that sometimes I loose or choose to surrender what I have to bring to the table for the sake of being rejected. I want to be who God made me to be ALL the time. Not just with certain people, or in certain settings.

So, the way to do that is to cling onto Christ's strength in me, and choose to be me ALL THE TIME. And the practical way to do that is to be Open & Vulnerable. This week I am actually going to write one letter to a person who has never really gotten to know the real me. And I think that our friendship never even got the chance to be one because of it. And let me tell you, that is SO hard for me to do. So, wish me luck.

That's all for today.

Expelled

Adam and I just got back from seeing the movie "Expelled"- the documentary/movie about darwinism and evolution, and how there is no room left for intellegent design in the scientific world. It just blew my mind that people could have SO MUCH FAITH in NOT HAVING FAITH. It's so sad. It gave me a fresh perspective on the whole situation though. Our society has become so numb to the teaching and philosophy of darwinism, that it is so important to make sure that we are being proactive in redirecting that emphasis to Jesus, and how truly amazing it is to stand in awe of his intricate and detailed world that He created. I would definitely recommend this movie.

That's all for tonight :)

Michael Thurmond's Body Makeover

I am on to another New Year's resolution...losing the 10 lbs I have wanted to loose for a long while now! Yes! My good friend Alexa and I are doing this plan together and I am on day 2 so far, and it's pretty rough. You eat 6 small meals a day, which seems like a lot, but it's not food that you are particularly crazy about, which makes it tough. Lots of veggies, some fruit, and VERY bland things besides that. But, my body does feel really good eating this way, and I am thankful that you get almost immediate results. That is one thing that is so discouraging to me about losing weight and getting in shape- it seems to take forever! It's suppose to only take 6 weeks, so we will see how it goes :) I may only go for about 3 weeks if I get the results I want, then I will just maintain. So, there is that update...

Woo hoo for losing weight!!!

Carrie Underwood!

Just thought I'd share the news that I am going to the Carrie Underwood concert in Tuscon on May 2nd with my friend Shannon!!! I am really excited about it and can't wait :) I really like her because I think that she is very humble and she has an amazing voice...We were able to get really good seats and it will be a really fun girls night out. Some of you may be asking, "Krystle, how does this fit into your year of paying off debt?!" Answer: I am using my birthday money! I am being a little presumtuous in assuming that I will get that amount of money for my birthday(which is in September, hehe!), but hey, you gotta live a little right?!!!! :) I will take a lot of pictures and hopefully post some, even though I hardly ever do! I hope all of you are having a wonderful night!

-Krystle

Remembrance & Resemblance

This Sunday at church we went over the meaning of Communion. It was really special and revealing. Our pastor encouraged us to remember and resemble Jesus and His sacrifice. He asked us to remember what Jesus did for us on the cross, remember His grace, and remember the history of Jesus, in that, before the cross, the words of God were spoken to prepare us for that moment, and after the cross, the words of God were spoken to reflect that moment and encourage us to resemble that kind of grace. Pretty powerful stuff.

Remembering what Christ did for us seems to be the easy part for me. It is automatically so humbling and reassuring that we do indeed have a GREAT lover of our souls. It's the resemblance part that gets a little tougher. So, after the sermon, I had to ask myself, "Am I resembling Christ?" And that's a tricky question. I know that I don't make Him look bad, but do I make him look good? That's the stinger.

I told Adam last night that I am trying to find my "element". That place where I know that I am living my life how God intended me to; my thoughts, my actions, using my God-ordained gifts, and my ministry. I firmly believe that God made each of us so differently because each of us will have a unique way of sharing both the gospel and His grace with others. I don't think that I am made to do it just like the person next to me, nor do I want to.

So, back to resembling. I want to resemble Christ in the way He made me to do it. And to answer my question (above), I don't really think I make Him look good as often as I'd like. In listening to that sermon, something was revealed to me. Lately, I have been judgmental. And I haven't been feeling much conviction about it. I have almost felt ok with it by justifying it, in thinking that it's NOT a judgment, it just an obvious observation. And what really is getting to me about that is looking at it from someone else's perspective. How would I feel if they made those "obvious observations" about me? It would be terrible because I could not defend myself at all. Nor do I ever want to have to defend myself around my friends or anyone else.

This brings me to my TPA ( Text, Principle, Application). By the way, I am sharing these things with all of you because for one, it helps me to remember to write things down, two, because I want accountability, and three, because this is what is happening in my heart, and I believe that God has called ME to be a particularly transparent person. But that is not to say that I will share everything here, just some things that I feel safe telling you all about :)

Text: 1 Corinthians 11:17

¹⁷But in giving this instruction, I do not praise you, because you come together not for the better but for the worse.

Principle: God calls us as believers to come together for the better.

Application: My application to this verse is to Choose Grace. That is the phrase I will remember when presented with a situation where I can choose to be ungraceful, unmerciful, or unloving.


*My other application to this sermon is to memorize this verse this week:

1 Corinthians 11:24-25

And when He had given thanks, He broke it and said, "This is My body, which is for you; do this in remembrance of Me." ²⁵In the same way He took the cup also after supper, saying, "This cup is the new covenant in My blood; do this, as often as you drink it, in remembrance of Me."

1 Peter 3:7

⁷ You husbands in the same way, live with your wives in an understanding way, as with someone weaker, since she is a woman; and show her honor as a fellow heir of the grace of life, so that your prayers will not be hindered.


Yesterday, I was housecleaning thinking about this verse. I was wondering what it meant. I was thinking that it meant one of two things; either husbands are too rational and it's hard to relate to their wives on an emotional level, or wives are too emotional and husbands have to just try and be as understanding as possible. It's interesting to try and dissect what God meant when He said that. Both conclusions seem relevant and acceptable to me.

It's ironic that I was thinking about that yesterday because I was presented with the perfect opportunity to see it played out. Adam and I were just NOT seeing eye to eye on a few things, and we were both just so frustrated that the other person couldn't understand! Mostly me. I really wanted him to understand why I was being the way I was ( it was all related why my emotions were the way they were) and he was frustrated that since I was having a hard time, I couldn't see where he was coming from or be sympathetic towards him.

Of course, I didn't remember this verse last night while it was all happening, but I did remember before and after! Ugh. How inconvenient. I think that just knowing that God instructed husbands to live with their wives in an understanding way could have really helped me. It could have showed me that sometimes it is really hard for husbands to understand the logic that is happening in their wives' heads because their brain just does NOT work the same way. I could have been a lot more patient and tried to help him to really understand, and for myself to just slow down and try to figure out what was really wrong with me before just reacting and making it harder!

Wow! Ladies & Gentlemen...I just had a TPA! Yes! For those of you who don't go to Moon Valley Bible Church, a TPA means: Text, Principle, and Application. It's kind of the "system" we use to apply the bible to our lives and live it out.

For Example:

Text: 1 Peter 3:7

You husbands in the same way, live with your wives in an understanding way, as with someone weaker, since she is a woman; and show her honor as a fellow heir of the grace of life, so that your prayers will not be hindered.

Principle: (This is a timeless truth about God's Word)

God is understanding of His OWN children and knows what they need to do in order to love eachother.

Application:

Figure out how I am really feeling so that I can actually understand myself first. Lay it out in a very logical way (to the best of my ability) possibly on paper, then talk to my husband about it in a very respectful and honoring way.


So, there you have it! Thank you friends for helping me apply God's word in my life by allowing to to write my little heart out until something good flows out. I'm sure the outcome will be great. I do have an amazing husband who really does understand me exceptionally well compared to most men out there. I am a VERY lucky woman!

Bogus!

YouTube - The Church of Oprah Exposed


Okay friends and fellow believers. Check out this video... It makes me cringe. I think that it's really important to know what the women in our country are clinging to, and the blasphemous lies that Oprah is believing, supporting, and flooding into people's lives. If this doesn't make me want to go out and shine MY light for Jesus and claim HIM to the world, then I don't know what does!

John14:6

Jesus said " I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through Me."

This is very scary. Beware. Satan is so deceitful and he can disguise himself SO well. Do not be duped to this way of "Self-empowerment" for the sake of being able to live however you want to with no consequences. The truth is, that Jesus is the only One that brings peace, fulfillment, and satisfaction to our lives in this evil world.

Let's all keep praying and shine our lights for Him.