More

As I sit here in bed watching my husband sleep, I have so many thoughts. I am so thankful to have Adam. He is a precious gift from God. My heart is so full with the love I have for him. I have my laptop on my stomach right now, and as I type, Ellie is kicking and moving it around. Amazing. Another precious gift from God. Life can be so sweet.

I am amazed at how God works. The title of my post is "More" because no matter what we have in our lives that bring us pleasure & happiness, there is absolutely nothing better than having more of Jesus in our lives. No matter how good life can be, it still leaves us with a deep longing for the purest love of all- the love of our Father.

I'm happy that nothing on this earth comes close to sweetness of knowing Jesus. No amount of love for a person-no matter how large-can fill the spot of our Savior who died to have communion and fellowship with us.

Tonight I missing Him. Since being pregnant, I have gone through some dry times with my faith. Not that it's bad because in order to know how good God is, we go through all kinds of seasons in life. But I think I'm ready. I'm ready to dive deep & emerge into the waters of walking closely with the Lord. Giving myself over. Overcoming insecurities & fears. I'm remembering the song by Leeland "Carried to the Table"- I recall a line in there that says "And I don't see my brokenness anymore...when I'm seated at the table of the Lord." And my friends, that is so true. When I am "seated" next to my God, everything is exposed. And it feels good. I don't have to hide behind anything. He made me. He loves me. He cares about me. He knows me. He knows my motivations & thoughts-good or bad. And through all of that, He still wants a close, tight, one of a kind relationship with me. That is amazing.

So, I want more. More of his love. More of his presence in my life. How sweet it is that He is there waiting for me. Tonight. Ready to take me in under His wings & welcome me back home. Thank you Jesus.