Monday, April 19, 2010

Baby

Well, I think (99% sure) that I had a miscarriage last night. I'm not sure why I'm blogging about it already, but my mind is just racing and I think I need to get some thoughts out. Adam and I are really sad. We really wanted this baby. I know that there will be more pregnancies to come, but we will always wonder what this one would have been like, and what kind of baby it would have been. I'm definitely grieving for my loss today, and last night and today has felt very surreal. I wish I could just take it back. I'm not mad or angry. I think that our body has a way with things, and for some reason, this one just didn't hold. But I am sad. So thankful that I have Ellie though to cheer me up...she is really good at that :) Adam also stayed home with me today and has been really supportive, loving, and encouraging. He is such a good comforter. I am still going to go to the hopital today to confirm everything...I will keep you all posted. Your prayers would be greatly appreciated right now. We have a God who gives and takes away. He is also our comforter & our shelter in our time of need. I know that through this, He will make me stronger and make some kind of good out of it. He is already at work by sending a dear friend from California (Heather!) out to me to just spend some time to just sit and hang out with me. Just so happens she has gone through this 3 times, and knows the perfect things to say (or not say) to help. I've also had so many people just sending out love and prayers through calls or texts, so thank you everyone! I will end with these verses that I'm holding in my heart right now:

"Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is commendable, if there is any excellence, if there is anything worthy of praise, think about these things." -Philippians 4:8

"Count it all joy, my brothers, when you meet trials of various kinds, for you know that the testing of your faith produces steadfastness. And let steadfastness have its full effect, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing." -James 1:2-4

Love, Krystle

2 comments:

Shannon said...

love you soo much Krystle, praying for you and Adam.
I am so sorry.

R,K,L said...

I am SO sorry you have to go through this. I have been there myself. I am praying for you Krystle.